January was slam packed with action. New years came and went and, after recovering from the holidays I settled back into a somewhat normal routine…least during the week. The third weekend of Jan. I went to Houston to hang out with my two best gal pals from studio at A&M. We had a great time catching up and participating in random activities (like trimming the tree at Ann’s new house, and cheering on the marathon runners as they crossed the finish line). The fourth weekend of Jan. I went to College Station to see a couple of friends for the last time until April. Sunday night was really interesting as I went to my church’s Chinese New Years party and enjoyed fellowship with some Chinese exchange students.
All this fun was fairly forgotten by Tuesday Jan 27th when at noon I received a scary phone call from my older sister. It was to inform me that my younger sister was in the emergency room after attempting to take her own life. I left work, picked up my mom who just didn’t feel like driving, and we headed to the hospital.
What I learned that day will probably stay with me forever. My sister and her much older boyfriend (who has many of his own problems) drank rat poison and antifreeze in an attempt to commit suicide. My sister threw it all up so she then slit her wrists. When that didn’t work she simply went to bed (this was monday night). On Tuesday the boyfriend woke up and, still sick ,decided to call the hospital.
My sister was declared a hazard to herself and moved into ICU for testing and care. Once she was cleared she was moved to another hospital that specializes in addictions, suicide attempts, and mental health issues. She was there for a little over a week (she is about to be released).
It’s been a strange, and eye opening week. I don’t know if I’ll ever get to the root of all that happend with my sister and with my family as we dealt with this over the week. It’s been rocky, smooth, odd, normal, every emotion possible has surfaced. Crying, smiling, laughing, yelling. We did it all.
I am still organizing my thoughts. For a while I did not want to share this information on this blog. But hiding this helps no one. My sister doesn’t care who knows…and I want to get the story out to help others. Over the next few weeks I hope to blog a bit more about some specifics and how we handled the situation, how the hospital didn’t seem to really do it’s job or provide real help (and when I say hospital I mean the mental health hospital…the actual medical hospital where she was in ICU was amazing). I am disappointed in the system that we had to deal with to help my sister. Of course all of this is still fresh so I don’t think I can really step back and explain everything. But I know I can’t be silent because people out in the world are hurting and if my sharing this story helps one person then it is completely worth any effort at all.
So for those who read this…please pray. Pray for my sister. Pray for my family. Pray for other people who feel darkness and think that death is the only way out. Pray. Pray constantly. God listens. I’ve seen Him work these few days in ways I’ve never seen. My faith was only strengthened by this incident.
Peace and blessings.